Its been a while

Amazing violinist!
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Plant a Tree

I found this on Julianne's blog and I loved it

Into the Woods

Time

I need a hug

Jar of Hearts

No, I can't take one more step towards you
‘Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
‘Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

The Ties that Bind

I want to be tied to people, not places.

Dreaming

Last night i had a horrible dream about alex and cameron. They were both being so mean and cruel. then I saw alex twice today, The first time she and cameron were about to bus to school and the second time she was walking to his house. Not having a good day.

Dreams

Mads Langer - Fact Fiction

Imagine a world without me
Say you're falling apart
Let's pretend you've missed me for a while
Wouldn't you say you were lonely
And love was breaking your heart?
Put on your Sunday best and fake a smile

I dream of dreaming dreams of her
In twilight she's a constant blur
The picture is clear
And I'm still fact, she's fiction

Remember the night you were with me
Fell asleep by my side
Strangers together, your hand in mind
How come we never came closer
When all the stars were aligned?
I thought we had a moment

I dream of dreaming dreams of her
In twilight she's a constant blur
The picture is clear
And I'm still fact she's fiction
I seem to miss the missing part
She's still my favorite work of art
The picture is clear
And I'm still fact, she's fiction

No, nothing has changed 'cause I'm still fact, she's fiction
Or I may be imperfectly formed in this contradiction

I dream of dreaming dreams of her
In twilight she's a constant blur
The picture is clear
'Cause I'm still fact she's fiction

I fell in love with her longing
Let's just say that she never found out
Who it was she never found in me

Goodnight

One of the things I miss the most is saying goodnight to you every night.

Fox and The Whale

I just found this cool artist.

Surrender

I'm mad at myself. I feel like a gave up with out a fight.

Confused

I'm so confused. I'm worried that we're not going to be the same we start hanging out again. I feel very out of sight out of mind.

Thank You

Thanks for coming over this morning. It really helped a lot. I know you can't always be there for me. But its nice to know that you wish you were. Have fun in Oregon. See you when you get back.

Free fall

I know you said you needed time. But while I'm giving you time you are with him. Laughing with him. Kissing him. Sleeping next to him. And I'm dying, alone and in the dark. I'm in a free fall and no matter what I do I cant stop.

Dead

I'm falling apart. Why won't you talk to me. You said you wished there was something to you could do to help me... talk to me. Just talk to me. Remind me that someone cares. Remind me that someone is there for me. Are you doing something more important? Are you too busy? Are you with him? Its not a fair question for me to ask but what is more important to you. I'm sorry, that's not fair. None of this is fair.

Forgotten

Were you this happy when you were with me? I don't know. Was I not exciting enough? I know you said you needed space for a few weeks but I still cant help but feel alone. You found someone to replace me, and now you've forgotten me. You have no plans with me. You don't tell me when you're sad. I went from being one of the most special people in your life to being ignored.

Questions

We dropped you and him off at your house. I hate all these questions I have in my head. Is he spending the night? What have the two of you done? Will I ever be in your arms again?

Lost

There is nothing in this life but mist.

Hurt

I saw you kiss him today when I was coming to meet you.I cried on the way home. It hurt. You asked if I was mad at you, and I said no. How could you think I was mad at you? I wasnt mad alex. I was hurt. I was hurt because you never kissed me in public. I was hurt because it reminded me of how sometimes it felt like you were ashamed to be with me. When you saw that I had seen you, you act like a little kid. You kept saying you are sorry.  Where you ashamed that I had seen you?  If you were then why would you have done it in the first place?  You knew I was coming to meet you. When you and I were together you would ignore me sometimes just because eric was around. Eric only had a crush on you and you didnt want to hurt him.  I love you and you didnt care if it hurt me.

Sorry...  I guess I am a little mad.

Carving

I haven't made art in a long time. Art is something that I've let consume my life in the past and its felt great. A pure and refined form of expression. I could spend a week without talking to people while working on an art project. I wish I had that feeling again.

When

There are so many things I didn't get to do with you, things I didn't get to show you, things I didn't get to learn from you. Will I ever get to?

What If

I'm worried. I'm worried that I wont be able to trust in you if we ever get back together. If you left me once you can do it again.

Tool

I know I shouldn't, but I feel ignored. A little used even. I know she is thankful for the help I gave but it feels like as soon as the work is done she no longer wants to hangout. I don't want to just be with her when she is stressed and aggravated. I want to hangout with her and do nothing, you know, watch a movie, laugh, but not work. Not all the time.
I hate these feelings. And I know that they are almost certainly not true. But it still hurts. I'm sorry.

Dying

I have lived for almost (21) years. I die tomorrow. And this is what hurts most: that I shall die on the ground. That I shall never take to the skies again, to dance, to laugh, to fly...
    ...Or rather, that when I take to the skies, for one last time, it will be as ashes.